Series: Flight & Glory #3
Published by Entangled Source: Netgalley
Genres: Alpha Guy, Best Friends, College, Contemporary Romance, Military, Romance
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Lt. Grayson Masters is focused on graduating the Apache helicopter course, and the last thing he needs is his gorgeous new roommate Samantha Fitzgerald distracting him. While her smart mouth and free spirit are irresistibly irritating, he can’t deny their off-the-charts chemistry, no matter how hard he tries.
Having just been expelled from college, Sam has no business digging for Grayson’s secrets while she’s hiding her own, but that doesn’t stop her from trying to tear down his walls. Each barrier she busts through drops one of her own, though, and she’s not prepared for the truth: another woman laid claim to Grayson’s heart long ago.
Falling in love is something neither Grayson nor Sam can afford, and when that line is crossed and secrets are exposed, they’ll learn that sometimes it’s the answered prayers that will put you through hell.
This book is so heartbreaking! Oh my gosh, I felt for every one of the characters in this book, it was like none of them could catch a break, and the great thing about this book is that no one in this story is a bad guy, there is no villain, it’s just a bunch of good people in a really hard situation. I can’t imagine being in any one of these people’s shoes, and I have to say I loved reading this story from beginning to end.
So Sam moves in with some old friends of hers basically being kicked out of her old college (due to some serious lapses in judgement, I would go into more detail but I don’t really want to ruin it). Anyway, she is all set to go to a new college, until like right before school is suppose to start they send her a letter saying upon further review they won’t be allowing her into the college. I felt so bad for her, she made on mistake, and in the end her future becomes up in the air. But what I really loved about Sam is that after some great talks with Grayson, she is able to really focus on getting her life back in order, making a name for herself, and I loved that about. I also have to say that her friendship with Avery was so great to read, how she would encourage her and give her advice, and showed up when Avery needed her, it just made Sam so likable.
So Grayson, oh poor Grayson. So in high school he was in an accident that left his lifelong best friends and girlfriend in a persistent coma. Gray feels so guilty about the accident, even though it is so totally not his fault, and he has spent the last five years basically living with his life on hold. Yes, he went to college and he is in helicopter school, which was his dream, but he goes home to see his girlfriend all the time, and he basically has no social life because he is living in like this self imposed prison of guilt. I felt so bad for him. I can’t imagine being in this situation. And his family, oh his family, some of them are great and supportive of him letting go of the past and moving on, and others are just horrible to him and want him to stay locked into this one horrible moment in time. It’s just so hard to read in some parts, I mean my heart broke for him, and the characters in this book.
The pacing was pretty good, and I was interested the whole time. The book is on the long side, which is great for me because I love long books, and it was great for the characters because they are so well developed by the time the book is done. I really did enjoy this book completely, so I highly recommend this book to anyone.
Grayson’s choices were so calculated, so deliberate, I doubted he’d ever so much as been late for a class.
“Samantha?” His eyes softened, revealing the give in him, and it cracked my own defenses.
“Have you ever made a mistake, Grayson? And I don’t mean the kind that costs you an apology. I mean one that destroys you? Where you lie awake at night, unable to sleep, because you’re terrified of what’s going to happen the next day, and the one after that? Where you’d give anything, and I do mean anything to go back and make a different choice? Where you’re sick all the time at the thought of what you’ve done? Because I have. I’ve crumbled my entire future, shredded any hope of finishing college, and killed off who I used to be. And I don’t…I don’t know how to come back from something like that.”
“You don’t.” I jerked back, but he held me immobile against him. “Stop, and listen to me. I’m not going to belittle you by
saying nothing is that bad, because some things are. Things happen that change who we are, and what we’re capable of. So you’re not going to ‘come back’ from that any more than you’re going to erase whatever you did. You have to decide if you’re going to try to keep patching yourself up or if you’re going to tear down and rebuild.”
“I don’t know how to do that.”
“You wade through the pain, and the guilt, and the excuses you make to yourself. Stop drowning in alcohol to numb the fear, and suck up the bitter taste of accountability.
You move on with who you are now. It’s not easy. If you think you screwed up that badly, then maybe you did, but you also have to leave room for the chance that you didn’t. Have you talked about it?”
I shook my head. There were two of us who knew the whole truth, and that circle was big enough. “I’m not sure I’m ready to let go of everyone’s vision of who I am. It’s so much prettier than the truth.”
“Not even Ember?”
“Definitely not think-through-everything-twice Ember. She wouldn’t understand, and I’m not sure I could handle her reaction.”
He swallowed and broke our stare like it had become too much because we both knew the truth—it had. “That’s the hardest part, letting someone see who you really are— scars and all. I’m…” He cleared his throat. “You need to trust someone enough to tell them the truth. Make peace with it before it eats you alive. I listen really well if you don’t have anyone else.”
I scrambled to throw up a wall between us. It was safer when he was hurling snotty comments at me. That, I knew how to handle. But this Grayson? The one holding me carefully, keeping me warm while the storm raged outside, offering to help carry the crippling weight destroying me? I didn’t know what the hell to do with that one.